I was recently challenged by my new friend Ian to start writing again. To keep sharing my story and to tell even the unexciting parts. Because maybe, seeing how I'm getting through those moments that seem like a mundane, everyday struggle moment to me might help someone else who is stuck in a struggle of their own.
So by way of jumping back in, I thought I'd share a little about a moment I had recently that revolves around meeting and getting to work with Ian. Ian Michael is a Marine Corps Veteran who founded the Human Hug Project with fellow Marine Veteran, Gino Greganti, and Gino's wife, Erin. All three are "using [their] own experience with post traumatic stress, isolation, anxiety and depression to help other people cope with theirs – all through the healing power of a simple hug."
I first learned about Human Hug Project from a story that was submitted to me for publication in the national newsletter that I edit for VA Voluntary Service programs. The trio has traveled the country in the last year+ visiting VA hospitals to hug Veterans. As I'm also the national "data monkey" for our service, I know that we have literally tens of thousands of volunteers and visitors to VA hospitals every year that give millions of hours of service and millions of dollars in donations to help Veterans. But for some reason that I couldn't quite name, this story resonated with me. In the pictures that accompanied the story, the joy on the faces of the Veterans receiving hugs was evident, but it was also clear that the joy was shared by those giving out these free hugs. As I researched to flesh out the article I learned more about the back stories that launched the project and couldn't help but want to be a part of it.
One of the coolest parts of my job is getting to work with groups like Human Hug Project and see first hand when someone makes a difference in the lives of our Veterans. When something as simple as a group of ladies bringing cookies and pizza to Veterans receiving treatment in a locked mental health unit, or three people giving out simple hugs, can cause a smile or bring grown men and women to tears, you know that what you do is worthwhile. If something so small clearly means so much, how can you not want to do more?
I got the opportunity to experience the power of hugs first hand when Ian, Gino, and Erin came to speak at our National meeting this past Spring. I got to accompany them to the Albuquerque VA and participate in a hug visit. It was such a powerful day, but what really moved me was hearing their stories the next day. To hear the deep, dark places that PTSD had led them to and how hugs had pulled them out was amazing. The joy they all have when hugging masks almost any trace that they do and have struggled. The hugs are truly helping the three of them heal as much as they are helping others.
With Ian, Gino, and Erin after hugging at the Albuquerque VA. |
Even though I'm not a Veteran and didn't experience combat trauma, I know what being broken feels like. Trauma is trauma and pain is pain. It's universally understood when you see it in someone else's eyes. Having once felt broken I know that it feels unfixable. I know that it's a hopeless feeling. I know what it's like to be in a body that feels like it doesn't belong to you because you can't seem to control it. But I also know, like Ian, and Gino, and Erin, and now Jennifer have also learned - you don't have to stay broken. Broken things get fixed. With hugs. With encouragement. You find your way out of brokenness by knowing someone cares about and believes in you. By finding your strength and believing in yourself.
Even though we all have different experiences, we've all struggled. Time and time again I've been reminded that I'm not alone - not just in life, but in struggling too. I learned how to not get stuck in a victim mentality because everybody has tough stuff they're going through. My struggle is mine, but it's not what makes me special. It doesn't define me. It's always been my choice to let it control my life, or to take control myself - and I've chosen the latter. I've chosen to fight.
Hugging in Dallas |
I realized that by working my way back from broken, I am at a place now where I can help others. I can share my story, my struggles, my triumphs, and even my hugs to help those that need someone like I did. That's a pretty powerful feeling that I might never have realized I was capable of, had it not been for a simple hug.